The Joy and Dread of Moving To and From a Foreign Country: Keep, Give, Recycle

The joy and dread of moving to and from a foreign country.

Moving has always included a certain element of dread. From a young age, I was told, you’ll make friends around the world, and see things others won’t. And while I knew and experienced the reality of that truth, the lack of one home caused deep confusion in my place of belonging and of my belongings.

For many who have lived a lifetime of moving, the stuff becomes reflective - either getting stuck in a period of time surrounding oneself with all the things, or completely releasing all things and living a rigidly simplistic lifestyle.

My journey has included both of which I hope in my 5th decade to now come closer to a balanced view and ability to embrace things and simultaneoulsy release them at any given moment. I want to live my life free from the attachment to things, and from a place of generosity!

This post was inspired from a previous blog when “how to get rid of your stuff?”, got a little lengthy. Below I offer what we did when we moved from Spain during the Covid pandemic and how we sold 3/4 of our belongings. This is a practical and subjective article. To understand the context, read: Attachment to Things: Your Story of Stuff and the Subtle (and not so subtle) Impact on Moving to gather a fuller picture.

Bottom line: Approach a move in stages.

It was early in the pandemic when no one was buying or selling from strangers. We were living in Spain on strict lockdown. Remember when we were unable to go to one another’s home and we sanitized anything new that entered our homes? Well, we were amongst the crazy ones who were already in motion to move in the summer of 2020. We had lived in Spain for 8 years as a family of four and despite loving our life abroad, the time was now for many reasons. We had discerned and clarified and were convinced that repatriating would be a part of our story.

To sell things, we began by sorting into three piles: Yes, No, & Maybe. We had clear “yes” piles for each person and set those aside for the very small shipping container we planned to use.

From the no and maybe piles were slightly more problematic so we began to gather these and work at making small daily decisions with as limited touchpoint with each object as possible (limiting decision-making). We were still months away from our launch date, but the sorting was in full swing. I knew I wanted to save my best energy for the end to be with people whole-heartedly. We set our move out date a month earlier than our flight, organized a place to stay at our friend’s and began the tedious task of determining meaning from our belongings.

This was an ongoing process, but we knew big things and certain electrical appliances (and toilet paper roll projects) wouldn’t make the cut of expensive shipping.

We then began taking pictures of items with as much detail as possible to sell.

Next, using these pictures, we created a google doc and made a simple grid, listing every item, with a number, a name and a picture. We included a description with as much and as HONEST of information as we would want if you were buying the items. The desire was to predict questions and answer them in advance to minimize unnecessary questions and back-and-forth communication. (i.e. Is it new or used, how big is it, how old is it?) 

The reason for using the google platform was that it updated in real time, was easy to navigate, and didn’t cost money. Most people had access and familiarity, and a simple link could be shared on a WhatsApp group or email.

With a little over a month out from our move out date, we sent out the link to targeted people we knew were moving and asked them to reply back on what they wanted. Next we hit up our local community (people felt surprisingly sentimental to our stuff!), After a few intentional group roll-outs, and an added sense of urgency that we were going to allow for a larger audience to look at things, we told people to send it out generously.

And then we quickly began to hear back.

One thing that felt unique this time, is that we didn’t hold anything without payment. We asked for a Venmo or PayPal payment to ensure these items were spoken for. And because most of the transactions took place digitally we asked if possible for the currency of the country we were moving to (not living in). We needed the money for where we were headed not where we were. While this sounds a bit rigid, it was an incredible time saver for us as sellers and helped clarify expectations for the buyers.

We made another document (on the notes app) listing the number and name that went with what person. Many bought several things so this helped us stay organized.

We then asked people to come to us and come within OUR availability. As selfish as that sounded it was a lifesaver. We wrote a general email and WhatsApp message and sent it out to the masses including these open periods of time. Because most people were in our network they were supportive and respectful of this request.

Probably the most beneficial thing we did this move, was in setting up LIMITED pickup times. When I say limited, I mean limited! We offered two windows of time for buyers to come or send someone on their behalf. (Example: Tuesday 12-3 and Thursday 3-6). Of course if we had someone who bought a lot, or had a good reason, we made exceptions.

I can’t say it enough…Scheduling blocks of limited time for pickup made all the difference! When you’re talking about communicating with 30+ people this will limit the communication to serve you well - especially in relational-centered cultures! (Whatever permission you need to do this, please find it!)

There are so many things to do in the final countdown before moving and while many do understand this limitation, there seem to be an equal number who don’t. Don’t be flexible on this. You are leaving your whole life which always includes a vast array of emotions, not to mention is stressful and time-consuming, and A LOT of work.

Included in those windows of time, we added a garage/yard sale & “free” sale at the very end. While people were picking up the bigger items, we were setting up the little items that we didn’t take pictures of for a sale at the end of the week. Now, let me just add that garage sales can be a pain. Prices are low, you sit there for hours, and well, you get it. But the good thing was that when people came to get their bigger items, nearly everyone bought something off of that garage sale (not yet organized) pile, as well. The actual sale date was two days out but people got to shop early for buying our bigger items. Our prices were just above the we’ll-pay-you rate.

This time around, despite covid and the incredible stressors involved in not knowing how moving would look, we felt incredibly seen in this process. People understood, were eager to shop, took a lot and many came back for more. We didn’t pressure ourselves to hold onto unnecessary items as we were thrilled that others could use them. As well, we didn’t mark or have all the for-sale items ready or priced at once. We allowed ourselves so much grace to start sorting early and ongoing when we had energy. When the week came we would keep adding to the piles and used the pick up times as helpful external motivation.

We also had a “please repurpose” section which was basically our free pile of half-used up boxes of toilet paper (a hot commodity then), non-expired food, and other small not-worth-it-to-ship-or-sell-treasures!

To note: This particular move, I didn’t waste my time with the wider socials. I was living in a foreign country and didn’t want the hassle of back-and-forth communication. (It was also during covid and unlikely a stranger would come over, anyways. If I were doing this again in non-covid times and in the US, I would use a buy nothing group (see Facebook in your area) and Facebook marketplace or nextdoor.

I've moved a lot and done this a lot...those are my few top pointers: Specific up-to-date descriptions on a document like googledoc, utilizing a wide network, limited pick-up times, and a general sale with as much help as you are able to pay for with those used items!

Moving is a ton of work. Give yourself a well-deserved reward of moving out with AT LEAST one week margin before getting on a plane open. Moving away from the stress of decision-making around belongings allows you the gift to enjoy the most valuable part of your expatriate life, the love of the people.

For deeper reflection: Where do you find yourself stuck? What do you notice comes up for you when you begin to think about moving?

When Sabbatical Feels Far Off But Desperately Needed

For many reasons I’ve dreaded writing this as it’s the lived-out version of what we do day in and day out splayed open to critique and judgment as I find my way forward in a very personal way. I muster up courage telling myself that at worst I’ll receive criticism and not everyone will love or agree with what I write. On the other hand the transparency may strike a chord with someone who deeply resonates. And if nothing else, as my writing partner encourages me, “vulnerable words and shared experience are more interesting to read!” (Thanks Melissa!)

Here’s the reality…

I (Sara) walk amongst the slow these days. Quite literally, a snail’s pace at times. I carry my hidden crutches fully inside my body in the form of hormone dysregulation and auto immune disorder. I know I am not alone in this. Many of us are fighting a battle that can’t be seen.  And yet it somehow feels different as a sabbatical coach.

It took years (30 to be exact) to admit that I had lived my whole life with varying degrees of brain fog that debilitated even everyday communication. My unseen limitation on a regular basis is basically a hiccup in my brain and a bite of food away from a long nap, and severe stomach ache. These are all manageable, but still incredibly inconvenient. In extreme times I can’t get out of bed and don’t have the capacity to take in new information.

“It took years (30 to be exact) to admit that I had lived my whole life with varying degrees of brain fog that debilitated even everyday communication.”

As a sabbatical and transition coach I wrestle with how to live into this reality when in extreme or moderated forms; when I can’t push myself like my personality would prefer. There are no reserves to draw from. I am forced to slow down and admit the need to do so.

There are seasons when we must slow down or even stop. And there are times when stopping for a long pause isn’t yet possible.

As a sabbatical coach we often hear the question,

“How do I operate in day to day life when I can’t get what I need yet and I’m on the slippery slope of burnout?”

And from others, the question is “Where do sabbatical coaches turn when they need a rest and a break?”

Like leaders in any sector and especially those in 24-7 or demanding ministry, “Where can we ALL find space to be transparent and in need, and not fully live into what we need, such as sabbatical, at the same time?”

Here are few counter-intuitive lessons from my recent Camino experience that I’m applying in my daily life and learning to embrace in this season when I can’t yet push pause.

1.     Listen to Your Body. Having walked 5 portions of the Camino de Santiago over the last 7 years, I have found the athlete inside of me come alive again. The Camino is different in that it invites our whole self to the conversation of spiritual transformation in the reality of where we are currently living but noticing in a heightened way while walking. One of the ongoing and strikingly obvious lessons has been this - my body knows how it wants to move and when it can move, and when it needs to rest. I just need to tune into the wise voice it speaks, listen, and respond. I apologize to my body for the way in which I would never treat any other human - like a machine. This feels new and an important lesson in sustainability and care. I apologize for the mistreatment and welcome ongoing guidance as we do this life together.

“I see you body. I see what you’ve done for me and how you can’t do it any longer. I acknowledge you’ve been working hard and need to stop for a time.”

— A moment of gratitude to myself

2.     Permission to rest. I recently read a statistic that lack of sleep is a better predictor of diabetes than diet. Meaning it is also the best prevention for this and many other diseases (of course alongside exercise and diet). In this season I must give myself permission to go to bed earlier. To say no to evening activities. To allow myself grace to skip a seminar and to take a nap. Or as on the Camino, to not walk for a day. I can work a 4-day work week and intentionally schedule sabbath. These are all lessons in resting - undeniable lifelines for me in this season.  

3.     Leave margin. If there is one thing I must daily focus on, it is how to get margin in all areas of my life. I do almost nothing at the speed I would like to or that I see others doing. For example, I move slower therefore I must leave the house earlier. I think slower so have to leave more time for creation in deadlines or even emails I need to write. I don’t schedule meetings back to back, I can’t pivot that fast. I don’t multi-task, my brain drains much faster when I try to. I can’t procrastinate and deal with the stress of last-minute changes.

In nearly every area of my life right now, I must think about adding extra time and energy. While this takes time in itself, it also allows me to show up as best as I can in what I do commit to.

4. Downshift my expectations of reality. When I drive uphill in a stickshift I notice the change in the sound of how hard the engine is working. With years of practice, I intuitively hear the overuse and manually shift down to third, second or even first to allow the engine to perform at its best capacity. If I don’t, I know it will not perform at all. In this last season of non-profit start-up I’ve had to acknowledge how loud the engine is running in my life and how I haven’t released it to work in 2nd or 1st gear, instead revving in 5th.  

In the last 6 months, it pains me to say what we haven’t done but these are the graces and can humbly admit it has been for the best. We cancelled two, 7-week cohorts. We only attended one conference instead of multiple this fall. We released the pressure to strategize best contacts, speak twice and have a booth at the one we did attend. We let go of the expectations on ourselves to finish our book by our desired deadline.

Full transparency none of those were chosen by me. The cohorts didn’t fill up, the second proposal didn’t land, the book didn’t get the space in our schedule that we desired to finish it. We were forced to downshift and humbly admit our humanity in it all. Ultimately I have to admit a performance orientation and confess that I am living unrealistically. I have to tell myself, not everything needs to be done by me and right now. This is a daily conversation. How much is enough?

5.     Ask for help. I am the first to admit that being needy is not in my DNA. However the value of the community of believers and the picture of Moses’ arms being held up by Aaron & Hur (Exodus 17:12-14) grants me permission to say, “it’s okay and even expected to need people”.

While we coach people to find where the world’s needs and their passion intersects and to live in that space 80% of the time, in start-up and certain ministry roles this is not always possible. At times there is no one else to do the job I’m not able to do (or am not skilled at doing).  So I’ve learned to ask, what can I NOT do today? What can someone else take off of my plate? And what can I just let go of entirely and not pick back up at this time?

And sometimes that website re-design or the newsletter doesn’t get attended to. I’ve had to extend grace that even though I’d like things done faster, frantic pace isn’t possible or healthy 100% of the time. There may be seasons of busy but we are not machines that can be pushed 24-7-365.

6.     Keep engaging in good self-care. As my naturalpath read my lab reports several months ago, his reaction surprised me. He said, I’m amazed by the look of these that you’re not doing a lot worse.” (Thank you?!) “What your labs tell me is that you’re currently in stage 2 of adrenal fatigue/burnout but you have great DHEA levels which says that healthy rhythms are sustaining you.” My takeaway: labs don’t lie!

We proceeded to converse and he probed a bit deeper about the practicalities. I shared what I have actively put in place to one degree or another over the last two decades of living with my health limitations. I proceeded to share that I have learned many hard disciplines such as daily supplements, intentional diet, daily exercise, turning work off at a decent hour, & weekly sabbath. I have the role of wife and mother that no one else can do so religiously focus on balancing play and fun with my husband and kids (separate and together). We incorporate more celebration and traditions and invite others into them whenever possible. Getting life-giving time with friends is huge for me so I schedule it at least once a week, even when I was in transition. Going to bed ridiculously early, only drinking decaf coffee (no judgment - it’s what my body needs), and saying no to a lot more than I would like are all part of good self-care for me. I have a support system of people that I rely on to keep me accountable to specific areas, such as this naturopath doctor.

I was reminded in that conversation that it can be really frustrating to have good rhythms and still experience your body as not fully functioning. My self-care rhythms haven’t solved all of my adrenal dysfunction issues, but they have made it possible to live a relatively normal life.  

7.     Reduce Stress. In that same conversation, he noted, you can’t take out all of life’s stress and sometimes stress is good, but your body must manage the amount coming in. Because of this immune disorder my body is always under a fair amount of stress in general maintenance. I heard, I must pick my battles more wisely! The energy reserves for stress are diminished and not being replenished as a normal person’s would.

And yet as I shared with my doctor and consider what is relevant to others, I feel a deep peace. I am attending to my limitations. I continue to incorporate the rhythm of my “Camino pace” as a reminder of my long and arduous journey just a few weeks prior. Slow and steady one foot in front of the other when I don’t know how long the journey will be or what other “mountain” I may find myself in front of. We say the Camino parallels life, like it or not, and these are my direct parallels and opportunities for ever-maturing response.

If I was sitting with you as a friend or coach, I would ask, “What strikes a chord? What is your key takeaway from how to live out a life of balance and rest when a sabbatical is not able to be actualized… yet?”